Friday, August 31, 2007

INJUSTICE FOR ALL


Above Photographed from L – R Todd Triplett, Shaun Jenkins and Philip McKenzie standing in the construction that would soon had been The Amber Art and Music Space

I am proud to say I have some of the greatest friends in the world. They are the most intelligent, driven, and creative people a person could ever hope to know. And when it comes to my friends and family, I am the most loyal and protective person you will ever meet. So when someone messes with my friends, I will stop at nothing to make sure those people feel the pain too.

I was absolutely devastated when I learned that three of those amazing friends — Shaun Jenkins, Todd Triplett, and Philip McKenzie — were in the final stages of building their Amber Art and Music space in Brooklyn, New York. This was more than just a venue; it was a home for all the creative souls of Brooklyn, NYC, and beyond. A place where artists could showcase their talent and where we, the patrons, could experience and celebrate their work.

When Shaun told me the words — eminent domain, the city, millions lost, time wasted, landlord nowhere to be found — it was like getting hit in the gut with a goddamn bat. Their space was being ripped away from them by the city with zero notice, BAM. If it hit me that hard, do I really have to explain how it must have affected these three great men who were the ones on the receiving end of this fucked-up city’s World Series-class swinging arm?

Below is a link to the full article in The Brooklyn Paper detailing this heartbreaking injustice. Please, reach out to your city council members and any other officials who might be able to help. We cannot allow this kind of injustice to happen to such good men.



GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Thursday, August 30, 2007

TO YOU MY FRIEND




I was in the middle of writing a post about summer — this one in particular — all the great times, from drunken days to drunken nights and back to drunken days again, the wild misadventures, chance encounters, and pure fun we managed to have in this city of Brooklyn that we hold so close to our hearts. Sometimes, hell, we even crossed those Bridges.

Then, out of nowhere, I got a letter that I thought my mailman had slipped into my mailbox by mistake. It was addressed to Alcohol. Now, being from Brooklyn and not afraid of a little Fed time, I thought, “What’s that? Three years your honor? I can do that standing on my head. You got some more?” So I opened Alcohol’s mail and read it. And honestly, now that I’ve read it, I don’t believe it was a mistake. I think the writer of this letter meant it as a petition — a letter for all of us to sign. And here I am, honored to be the first John Doe leaving my drunken X.

So here it is. OUR letter to our dear old friend Alcohol. We hope it finds you better than you left us.

Dear Alcohol,

First and foremost, let me say this — I am a huge fan of yours.

As my friend, you have always been there when needed. The perfect post-work cocktail, a beer at the game, even showing up at the holidays hidden inside chocolates, warming us when we’re stuck in the middle of those endless family gatherings.

But lately, I have been wondering about your true intentions. I want to believe you have my best interests at heart, yet your influence has led to some questionable consequences.

1. Phone Calls and Text Messages: I agree communication is important. But why, oh why, do you insist on making me call my exes at 3 a.m.? Especially when I KNOW for a fact they do not want to hear from me during the day, let alone in the middle of the goddamn night.

2. Eating: You know I love a good meal, but why do you suggest I eat a taco with chili sauce alongside a massive Italian meatball and some stale chips, all washed down with wine, and then top it off with a Kit Kat after a few cheese curls and chili cheese fries? I’m an eclectic eater, sure, but you really went too far this time.

3. Clumsiness: Unless you’re trying to subtly tell me to take up yoga to fix my balance, there is no reason to hammer this issue home by causing me to fall down. It is completely unnecessary. The mysterious black and blue marks that show up on my body the next day? I have no explanation. Also, it should never take me more than forty-five seconds to get my key into the front door lock.

4. The Hangovers: The hangovers have GOT to stop. This is getting ridiculous. I understand a little penance for our previous night’s debauchery is fair, but the three p.m. immobility is unacceptable. My entire day is shot. If I take the proper precautions — water, vitamin B, bread products, aspirin — before I pass out (usually face down on the kitchen floor with a bag of popcorn or wherever) the hangover should be minimal and never interfere with my daily life.

Alcohol, I have enjoyed our friendship for years now. You have been the spark for unforgettable stories, the reason for countless laughs, and the companion when I don’t know what else to do with the extra money in my pocket.

To keep this friendship alive, I ask that you review my grievances carefully and address them immediately. I will expect an answer no later than next Friday at 3 p.m. (right before happy hour) with your possible solutions. And hopefully, we can continue this fruitful partnership.



Thank you,

Your Biggest Fans
GVG

P.S. Please take a moment or two and note the following items below that I think may be of some interest to you.

THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:

1. Innovative
2. Preliminary
3. Proliferation
4. Cinnamon

THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:

1. Specificity
2. British Constitution
3. Passive-Aggressive Disorder

THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:

1. Thanks, but I don't want to have sex.
2. Nope, no more beer for me.
3. Sorry, but you're not really my type.
4. Good evening, officer. Isn't it lovely out tonight?
5. Oh, I couldn't. No one wants to hear me sing!

Monday, August 27, 2007

PUBLIC LETTER TO Dr. Creflo A. Dollar AND ALL LIKE MINDED


My friend Steven just emailed me a public letter from Dr. Creflo A. Dollar concerning President Bush and the war on Iraq posted on his website. Dr. Creflo A. Dollar is an evangelist preacher with a weekly Sunday Christian program that airs on BET. His site states that "Dr. Creflo A. Dollar is the founder and senior pastor of World Changers Church International (WCCI) in College Park, Georgia which serves nearly 30,000 members, and World Changers Church New York which hosts over 6,000 worshippers each week." Please click on the link below to read his public letter then read my own letter back to him posted here.

http://www.creflodollarministries.org/articles/monthly_unitedwestand.html

To Dr. Creflo A. Dollar

First let me begin by thanking you for taking the time in between saving us from our inevitable future of eternal damnation in the burning depths of hell, “accepting” the life savings of all your parishioners in the name of the lord, which is fitting since your last name is Dollar, and cosigning the taking of the lives of other god fearing men, women, and children or do you prefer I call them insurgent in the name of oil, I mean bush, wait no I mean freedom, Yea that’s it freedom. The root word being free also the root word in freewill which I believe would be one of the arguments our dear old president’s advisors would have you believe is the reason for sending all our mothers, brothers, sons, daughters, cousins, and friends or do you prefer I call them Soldiers to be killed in Iraq except for his own family and friends oh sorry we’re not supposed to speak of that part of the story. Yet we are not allowed the freedom of our own freewill to disagree with the actions of a “regime” that doesn’t listen to congress, the UN, or its people. This seems very familiar yet I can’t seem to find a word that properly describes this type of behavior or government. Yes, it has come to me Dictatorship. If you are in any way confused a Dictatorship is defined as an autocratic form of absolute rule by leadership unrestricted by law, constitutions, or other social and political factors within the state.

It should be noted for my own full disclosure that I am not a Christian, but understand that I was raised in a Christian household and will not disrespect the way in which people “choose” to live and survive through this troubled world. This letter is in no way anti Christian it is however anti you and Bush, please be clear on that. My issue lies in propaganda like the one you have spent the time writing and rewriting to get it to that perfect point of divisiveness that has made anyone who at any time thought about questioning their own actions in protesting the war even stronger in their beliefs after reading the ignorance you chose to pelt them with in this misinformed rhetoric filled piece of propaganda. Your opening sentence is “When a nation is on the brink of war, the worst thing its citizens can do is allow themselves to become divided.” Yet, the inevitable outcome of such a letter is to divide by making it an us against them reality as opposed to a discussion of why people went from strongly advocating the war some might say advocating revenge to then just as strongly protesting it. You might look to all the revelations (Pun intended) that have come to light concerning this administration of misinformation, lies, mismanagement, no weapons of mass destruction, neither Iraq nor Saddam Hussein having ANY connection with September 11 and as I recall it September 11 was the reason for this war in the first place. Am I correct?

Let’s take a moment and discuss the word mentioned earlier insurgent. Wikipedia defines it as an armed uprising, or revolt against an established civil or political authority. Persons engaging in insurgency are called insurgents, and typically engage in regular or guerrilla combat against the armed forces of the established regime, or conduct sabotage and harassment in the land in order to undermine the government's position as leader. Now who falls squarely under that definition is it the Iraqis defending their country as we Americans would also do if our government was overthrown by another outside force for no truly validated or proven reason or is it the superpower that comes into their country and begins to torture, kill, and plunder them? I’ll let you answer that for yourself and move onto the other points in your statement.

"I declare that he is a man of wisdom, and he is strengthened and guided by the Holy Spirit. I wholeheartedly support the decisions he makes for this country (1 Timothy 2:1-2)." With a statement like that you officially cancel out any desire I have to give you the time of a proper rebuttal because you've already proven to be someone of a lesser mind with no sense of reality and should obviously seek professional help for your delusions and if currently taking any psychotropic drugs please see your physician to have the dosages changed or the prescription changed in its entirety due to the clear signs of non effectiveness from your ongoing mental illness.

Your quotes in this letter got better and better with each paragraph. Let’s discuss this one my favorite “submit to that established authority. In doing so, you honor God, our president and thousands of service members. When the temptation comes to murmur or complain, rejoice that there is a man in the White House who walks and talks with God daily.” I’ll say this to you as a Black man you should know better than to advocate blindly following anyone. We are the ancestors of slaves. Our ancestors were stolen from their homelands, brought here and numerous other coasts across this world to serve at the hand of our oppressors under the name of the Christian and capitalist power. As a man of the cloth you should be well versed in the history of the religion you hold so dear and the ways in which the holders of the word took it to bring you and our ancestors over to the Christian side. So before you proclaim that we as a people should follow anyone blindly remember what you ask and the lives that have been lost already to such blind faith. Where would we as a people be if we didn’t murmur, complain, and then stand up? We would still be picking cotton. No nice suits for you and that bible you love quoting so much you wouldn’t even have since you would have been hung for even knowing how to read it. It should also be noted that no one is against the troops and it disrespects the families and friends of all those who have lost soldiers in this war to say that for them to want this war to stop would be showing any less support for the troops. Especially since we are the troops, those recruitment centers aren’t in the suburbs they’re in the inner cities, lower middle class communities of all races, schools with high dropout rates, and other places where it is known that you can find impressionable youth with no other options other than to be “The few and the proud” for a couple of dollars and a degree as long as you don’t get blown up or shot.

I rebuke you and all you put forth in this letter and any other statement like it because it is clear that you are a monstrous force that can only do harm to us as a people and until you understand that this massacre puts the blood of the innocent on all our hands then you should sit down and allow those with a better understanding to do all the speaking and writing. You did get one thing right “united we stand, divided we fall” so it is with that closing thought that those of us who care will unite to make sure you and your kind fall. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts and I hope your bible and Bush are enough to soothe you to sleep as all those people die by his hands and your support.



Sincerely,
Gardy V. Guerrier

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Sunday, August 26, 2007

AUDIO FOREPLAY SUNDAY ?


I have absolutely NO idea what I should play for today’s Audio Foreplay Sampling. I just woke up from one of the most lackadaisical Saturdays of my life. And honestly, it was kind of beautiful. I surrendered to the day, letting things unfold however they chose to. No plans, no pressure.

I tried to make Happy Happy Joy Joy Juice for a friend’s BBQ, but everything that could have gone wrong with it did. Still, not once did I feel frustrated. Not once was I truly bothered, even as I wandered through the relentless 93 degree heat, unsure of what I was even looking for.

I arrived so late to things that people were literally leaving by the time I showed up. And I didn’t care.

I kicked it at the outpost in Brooklyn, standing firm on my personal rule of staying out of Manhattan on weekends. Around midnight, with three solid Brooklyn options in front of me, my boys gave me the head nod. I said FUCK IT, climbed into the back seat of my friend’s car, and just rode it out.

That ride turned into a night that could have felt chaotic or full of ups and downs to someone else. But for me, it was something different. A night etched in memory. One that flowed not because it made sense, but because it didn’t have to. The joy was in the wandering. The real magic was in not needing a destination to enjoy the ride.

If something comes to me later to play, I’ll share it. But for now, just enjoy the beauty of the world around you. Let the day unfold. Let the laughter be loud. Make every moment worth smiling about.



GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Thursday, August 23, 2007

WE GOT TO FIGHT, FOR OUR RIGHT , TO... !!!


I wish you guys had been with me last night. I could have used the consolation. My heart was CRUSHED.

My cousin and I went to Lotus. I am not really a fan of what the party has become these days. It leans too far into the Hollyhood vibe for my taste. But if you can block out the "Rapper nut sack holders" and the "Video chick baby oil applicators," it is still a solid place to hang on a Wednesday night.

The moment I walked in, I saw her. She had this short natural hair that framed her face like sunlight. Her beauty was the kind that silences a room. Face radiant. Body effortlessly elegant. Her dress and heels were not some off-the-sale-rack Forever 21 deal. No. This woman had presence. She had taste. And when she smiled at me, it felt sincere. Like maybe, just maybe, I had a shot.

I approached her for a dance. She looked me dead in the eye and said, “I really really would, but my boyfriend is about to come through the door.” I could not tell if it was bullshit or not. Maybe it was a soft letdown. Maybe it was the truth. Either way, I respected it. I fell back and kept it moving.

My cousin and I posted up at a friend’s table that overlooked the dance floor. I had my back turned, trying not to dwell. That is when she tapped my shoulder and reminded me of a conversation we had a few days ago. She had mentioned how much “different attention” she gets from men since going natural. She leaned in and said, “You see how white guys really go hard for those natural girls more than brothers?”

I turned to see what she was pointing at. There she was. My natural queen. In the arms of a white man. And not just standing close. I am talking about that intimate greeting kiss. The kind that makes it very clear that this is not just casual. It was him. The boyfriend. So no, she was not lying. She was just unavailable. But damn. DAMN. Why did the baddest chick in the entire spot have to be with the white dude?

That shit HURT.

At one point, we were all the way across the club, just trying to enjoy the rest of the night. And what happens? They come right in front of us. Dancing. Laughing. Canoodling. Like they had a spotlight and a front-row seat to my disappointment. It felt like they could see straight into my head as it screamed, "I HATE THIS SHIT!!!"

My cousin told me to let it go. Told me to get over it. But I couldn’t. I still can’t. It is the next morning, and I am sitting with this ache in my chest that I do not fully understand. It is not just about being rejected. It is something deeper.

I WANT MY SISTERS BACK.



WE GOT TO FIGHT, FOR OUR RIGHT , TO... !!!

... OUR BLACK WOMAN!!!

Think I just wrote the first draft for my next topic blog. LOL

GVG
~we're the warriors they write epics about~

UPDATE

When they're right they're right. If not your friends and family who else is there to call you out on your BS?!?!


Sir "CMG" says:
"You’re dating a biracial chick and blogged on the woes of miscegenation"

Sunday, August 19, 2007

AUDIO FOREPLAY SUNDAY

It’s another Sunday and that means another Audio Foreplay. I realized this whole summer had run its course and I had never played the ultimate summer jam “Summer time” By DJ Jazzy Jeff and the Fresh Prince. As I played the song in my head I started thinking about all the summers of my life and it got me thinking about my favorite summers of the past and all the songs that were playing in the background as i did what you do in the summer sun to summer nights. So with that in mind this Audio Foreplay Video sampling is dedicated to summer and all the great memories it’s given me.

No point playing around with it, let’s start it off with the MONSTER that inspired it all

DJ Jazzy Jeff & the Fresh Prince - Summertime


Salt n Pepa-Push it


LL Cool J - Around The Way Girl


Biz Markie - Just A Friend


Dr. Dre, Snoop Dogg - Nuthin' But A G Thang


Naughty By Nature --- O.P.P.


Pete Rock feat. CL Smooth - Lots of Lovin


Positive K - I Got A Man


Jodeci - Come And Talk To Me


H-town Knockin the boots


Skee-Lo - I Wish


Kriss Kross - Jump


A Tribe called quest - Scenario


The Pharcyde - Passin' Me By


Souls of Mischief - '93 til infinity


MAD LION " Take it eazy..."


Lords of the Underground - Chief Rocka


Heavy D feat. The Boyz - Nuttin but love

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Queen Latifah Just another Day

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You're All I Need- Method Man f/ Mary J. Blige


Jay Z Hard knock life


Nas - If I Ruled The World


HAD TO DO IT, SUMMER BANGS HARD TO THIS.

Rick Ross - Everyday i'm hustlin


Think about all the best summers you had while you listen to this last one.

Ahmad - Back in the Day

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SUMMER IS ETERNAL

GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

P.S. That was so long, it was only suppose to be about 5 videos, but once I got started I couldn’t stop, every single one of those songs holds a great summer memory for me.


HOW ABOUT YOU TELL ME WHAT YOUR ALL TIME SUMMER SONG IS

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

HEAD ABOVE WATER


At 10 yrs old while preparing for my first communion, I remember being taught the story of Eve the Temptress and how, with the simple bite of the fruit, she corrupted Adam with her feminine woes resulting in their expulsion from the oasis that was The Garden of Eden. What was it about Eve that made Adam succumb? This story deeply affected, disturbed, and fascinated me all at the same time, for a very long time. In some ways it was, and still is, the reason I question the intentions of every woman I have ever met. This biblical story was not the only red flag that warned me. I know of a whole generation of men, from puberty to adulthood, who tout women are the basis for their perpetual state of guardedness. Yet, in many cases, the gospel they quote is the contemporary version sung new jack swing style by Bel Biv Devoe, “NEVER TRUST A BIG BUTT AND A SMILE, THAT GIRL IS POISON!!!” While not all of us were aware of BBD’s biblical reference, we knew from that day on, we had heard the word and would be forever faithful followers of it.

This biblical cautionary tale and all its attempts at warning us as men of our own self destruction from temptation that was named “Her” as she was the source of human original sin came back to me as strong as when I had read the story for the first time as a child, while having a conversation with a longtime friend, I extended an invitation for him, his wife and two lovely daughters to attend the seventh annual MIH Heatwave barbeque. The event is by far one of the most anticipated summer gatherings of young Black professionals in New York City. Those of a certain ilk, flock to Brooklyn’s Prospect Park for beautiful people, libations, and good finger lickin’ eatin’. Sweet memories are made each year as folks share laughs, camaraderie and witty conversation. As I described the mise en scène, he was gung- ho, echoing my excitement with each detail I relayed about the beauty that was and would be at the MIH Heatwave 7.0. In fact, he couldn’t wait to bring his family to share in the afternoon of summer goodness. My boy was there right along with me. He wanted his family to join us in the atmosphere of friendship and fun that was going to take place at the event. Knowing he had never been to the event, I gladly provided him with all pertinent information. To seal the deal, I forwarded him the full email invitation with pictures from last year’s gathering. I did not, however, anticipate his reaction to the invitation pictures.

Below are excerpts from the e-mails that transpired from there (names have been changed to protect the identities of the innocent and not get my boy in any trouble with his wife)

“K’s” email began, “As a young married man with a family, still virile might I add, this would not be something I would voluntarily come to with my wife and my daughter.”

He went on to say that, they would have a good time, but he himself would not. He continued, “This is something I would go to with you, Cous Steph and/or Mike. Not the sort of thing I take my family along to. And if I have to explain this even more,” he went on to say, “think about it in the terms of that I would have to behave myself.”

“K” thanked me for the invitation then ended with, “Appreciate your freedom now my friend. When you settle down like me, these types of events will be no more.”

This deeply disturbed me to the point that I had to take some time for his words to sink in—which they never really did-- before I responded with;

“NAAAAAH, it’s just good folk enjoying themselves. I have a few friends who are bringing their families too. Just a cool Sunday activity for the family with great energy and no type of disrespect. In addition, this may or may not be of interest to you, but there is a very large following of mixed individuals who will be there. I think that would be great for your girls to experience so they can see adult reflections of themselves in a positive setting. Dude, you're my guy and I'd like to chill with you and La Familia. I understand everything you've said but I'd truly appreciate it if you reconsidered.”

K's Response was, “It would work if Julie (his eldest daughter) was here but she is in Cali with the mother-in-law…sorry my man, ain't gonna work. Gonna probably take them to the beach instead (or maybe the botanicals, hmmmm…”)

I was saddened to hear that he wouldn’t make it. The conversation did not settle right with me. I was reminded of the opening scene in “Hitch.” In the scene, Hitch's longtime friend and brother-in-law are playing pool, the friend begins to pontificate about the shallowness and pathetic nature of single life and how being married with child is the true definition of success. Mere seconds later, Hitch’s friend suddenly changes his mind after two gorgeous women walk into the club. He stares at the women, the corner of his lips almost drooling with saliva.

Hitch turns to him and says, "Do you want me to go get them and bring them over here?"

The friend tries to contain and compose himself but instead stutters, "NO No Nooo Nooooo, doonnn ddooonn't don't do that!"

Hitch retorts, “Are you saying you don't want to talk to them, because you can't go home with them?"

The friend pleads, "Hey, what do you want from me? I'm just trying to keep my head above water," with such piety as if he would sink and drown in Hades’ pool just for looking at the women.

My conversation with “K” also reminded me of another scenario that occurred with another attached friend. I took “C”, my good friend, and his now wife then girlfriend, “J” to the launch of another friend’s weekly event. “C” and “J” were excited about the night and trusted in the fact that I always came through with a good party for all to enjoy. We walked through the huge curtains that separated the front


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GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

SOMETHINGS GOTTA GIVE...

I think I need anger management, yoga, acid, a belly rub something. It feels like I’m always on edge, stuck in a perpetual state of wartime readiness with Grandmaster Flash and The Furious Five whispering in my ear, “Don’t push me cuss I’m close to the edge, I’m trying not to lose my head.” I wait, not so patiently, for someone to set me off.

Yesterday afternoon, I got a call from my friend Steve. He asked me to collaborate on a new photo project—an idea that truly speaks to the hidden parts of my soul. I’m understating when I say it should have made the best start to my day. It gave me the good energy I needed to breeze through the rest of it on a high.

But, at the same time I was talking to Steve, I was standing inside the new Bank of America branch in my neighborhood. In front of me was what they called a Professional Teller. My question: Are there amateur tellers messing with my money? And what does it even take to go pro?

Anyway, there I was, facing this “Professional Teller” who, with all my heart, I believe was trained by drunk monkeys let loose on the community to inflict maximum pain, frustration, misinformation, and stupidity—safely barricaded behind a spit and bulletproof glass divider.

So while I’m talking to Steve, this teller tells me something that sets me off. WOW. Did I go off. It happened so fast I didn’t even realize I still had the phone to my mouth while I had this full-blown conniption fit. Poor Steve, the calm, collected, patient Buddhist that he is, got the full brunt of my wrath. The branch manager came over to whisper calming words, which only enraged me more.

It was at that moment I knew I was really going off. Then I realized Steve was still on the phone. I told him I’d call back, hung up, and let loose on both the teller and the manager like they had just insulted my mother in a way that would get me found not guilty for murder on grounds of temporary insanity.

Here’s the thing though — it wasn’t that serious. Yes, they fucked up, but they always fuck up. I think I attract stupid people. Maybe it’s God’s way of keeping my verbal assault skills sharp. The crazy part is I am a master of the calm and firm “dialogue” — more like me getting in your ass than a real discussion, but we’ll call it dialogue for appearances. It probably helps that I’m a 6 foot 2, 250+ pound black man with a Mohawk and a face that screams, “Fuck with me if you want to! I eat people for fun.”

So yes, I got my way. But I could have gotten it without losing it. And that is exactly what happened—I lost it. I had zero control, and that is not cool.

What made it worse was that I wasn’t even that mad. As soon as I walked out, I was right back to being geeked about Steve’s photo idea. I wanted to go back and apologize, but I wasn’t ready to allow them to excuse their stupidity and contradictions with a casual “it’s all good.”

I do think I will go tomorrow though, just for my own soul. I don’t like what’s going on or where this is headed. I think, correction, I know I need to do something about it. Guess it’s just a matter of figuring out what.

Does anyone know where I can get some acid? Hippies seem so happy and relaxed. I’m going for that. Or maybe I’ll just make my own porn with chemistry instead—that seems like it could lead to some serious Happy Happy Joy Joy me.

UPDATE

So I did it. I woke up early today, went back to the bank hat in hand, and apologized—to the “Professional Teller” (I don’t care, that is still funny) and the branch manager for unleashing the wrath of the heavens on them for no real reason.

As I apologized, they kept telling me it was okay. They said there was no need for it. They had moved past it and understood my frustration from all the issues trying to complete what should have been a simple transaction.

I realized the apology was less about them and more about me. I was apologizing to myself for letting it all spiral, losing my composure, and with it, my self-respect.

I’ve always loved, but not necessarily lived by, the proverb: “When you argue with a fool, no one watching can tell which is which.”

I am tired of being seen as the fool.



GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Monday, August 13, 2007

A SUNDAY WITH ZAP MAMA TO WARM ME UP

You might not realize this from my last few posts but I have not been in the best mood. LOL, yeah I know, whatever. It has been a terrible weekend and I put my business out there for all to see but that is exactly why I started this thing. I woke up on Sunday feeling some serious fuck the world energy. I had turned off my phone the night before so I would not have to hear any more of that damn crackberry beeping with calls, texts, and emails telling me about all the shit I missed. I GET IT; I MISSED THE PARTY OF THE YEAR. For those of you who do not know what happened, that is just how it has to stay because if I go into it again I am going to get pissed, and none of the people responsible are worth the text. I will say this though: sometimes you just have to go it alone.

I woke up around 2:30 PM. Yes, 2:30 PM. I drank some orange juice, ignored my crackberry even more, and thought about why I allow myself to be so angered by others. Then I decided I was not going to let anyone fuck with my Sunday. That was officially the beginning of a good Sunday. I had frozen some bottles of water the night before, emptied one out, and made myself a very nice rum-laced beverage to enjoy throughout the day. I left the house around 3:30 PM. I was not in the mood for anything heavy so I grabbed a honey turkey and Swiss sandwich to take with me to the show. I hit the train and was in the city rather quickly.

As soon as I walked into the SummerStage area, I ran into some great friends I had recently met at my usual Sunday hangout. There is nothing better than entering a venue and being greeted with big smiles and warm hugs filled with sincerity and love. We made our way through the crowd looking for our friends who were already in the know. As we separated to find them, I turned my head and saw an old friend sitting in the sponsor VIP area. A couple of hugs and smiles later, I found myself sitting there with this friend whom I had not seen in over a year but had somehow seen twice in the past two days. The universe has an interesting way of making things happen.

I arrived at around 5:15 PM, too late to catch Angelique Kidjo, but honestly, that was not why I was there. I was there for Zap Mama. At 5:24, the opening band started, and by 5:31 Zap Mama hit the stage as scheduled. Yes, some people actually show up on time. The show was exactly what I needed: a full two-hour set with all my favorites from every album, not just a big promo for their new album “Supermoon.” They mentioned that album only once as they performed my favorite track from it, “1,0.00 ways”, and we sang along to every word as if the album had been out for years rather than just two days. To see these women leap onto the stage as if it were a massive trampoline, move a thousand plus people to sing and chant at the top of their lungs, dance, and wave their hands takes a special kind of performer and soul—and that soul belongs to Marie Daulne. I needed a fix and she gave me just the hit I required.

It amazed me how this place had dramatically changed my mood. It made me realize I am not built for negativity. I need the warmth of positive energy. Some people I know always talk about how you have to flow with whatever happens and not allow things to affect you, as if being indifferent to the world is somehow a good thing. I am sensitive and I love it sometimes, but it is my sensitivity that allows me to truly feel moments like this. I realized music lives deep within me and controls my mood and energy. I remember being in a terrible mood years ago and a DJ putting on Talib Kweli’s “Get By”, and my whole mood changed. The song forced me up on my feet so I could stand on top of the table and feel every word and note of that song just as I did that night I talked about in my “PLEASE SWEAT THESE TECHNIQUES” post a few weeks ago. I came to a great realization last night: Music is my mistress and I am addicted to her loving.

After a three-song encore, I left the park and ran into Sallome, a soul whose warmth could melt ice cream just by being near it. I looked at her, she looked at me, and we both shouted BROOKLYN. We made our way to the train, hoping to make it to the last Soul Summit show in Fort Greene Park. We had both wanted to be part of the “I LOVE BK” documentary currently being filmed all over our borough. We got off the train in Fort Greene, also known as Chocolate Chelsea as my homegirl Sabrina had coined it, and ran into so many friends that by the time we tried to get to the park, everyone was walking out. We ran into some more friends and turned back toward Habana with the crowd to enjoy more rum and tequila laced beverages, good food, great conversations, and some people even watched the movie. I LOVE MY SUNDAYS.

Summer is eternal. Believe in it.



P.S. WOMEN SHOULD NEVER EVER EVER EVER CHEW GUM; THIS IS WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE.


NOT A DAMN THING SEXY ABOUT THAT!

GVG

~we're the warriors they write epics about~


UPDATE

Finally got the pix from the Zap Mama and Angelique Kidjo show at Summerstage.



I hear I missed a great show by Angelique Kidjo





Zap Mama








Sunday, August 12, 2007

AUDIO FOREPLAY SUNDAY


It is now 8:22 AM and I have just walked into my home. This would not be a problem if I had come from an evening of fun or anything that had anything at all to do with me. I am not going to get into what caused me to be out until 8:22 AM, but I will say this: there is no word in English, French, or Creole that can capture the level of anger I feel right now. I am supposed to be waking up at noon to see Zap Mama create a supernova with their performance on SummerStage today. So if this somehow affects that, or puts me in the kind of mood where I just do not want to go out, another one of those fucking bridges I mentioned yesterday is going to get burned the F.U.C.K DOWN. My friendship is not a right; it is a privilege, and I revoke privileges like I am the fucking warden of Attica.

I have no idea what time I will wake up, so I am posting the audio foreplay sampling now. I know this should be day three in my new music review series, but with it being Sunday and Zap Mama performing on SummerStage, I have decided to postpone the third installment until tomorrow and dedicate today’s audio foreplay Sunday to Zap Mama, with a sampling of my favorite Zap Mama videos. As always, enjoy the seconds.



Zap Mama & Erykah Badu - Bandy Bandy


Zap Mama - Sweet Melodie


Zap Mama - Brrrlak


Zap MaMa-Abadou


GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Our love to admire then kill


I woke up to a message today that fucked with me in a way I just wasn’t in the right place to handle. The line that really hit me was the closing, which read, “Don’t burn the last bridge you have.” I laughed bitterly and thought, FUCK YOU. You don’t know shit about me or my bridges.

I was awake and needed music as I moved about, so I tried to keep riding the new music high by putting on Interpol’s latest release “Our Love to Admire”. That was a mistake. It’s dark, heavy with bass and guitar riffs, layered with Paul Banks’s moody voice and even moodier lyrics. It fucked up my mood and forced me to look way deeper into that last line than I wanted to.

I found myself thinking about the bridges I poured gasoline over, lighter in one hand, middle finger up in the other, with a cocky tone of satisfaction, calmly saying from the other side of the grass, “FUCK YOU. You’re not worth the wood you were built with.” Then dropping the lighter, turning my back, and walking away without even glancing back to watch it burn.

That’s the life of a rock star. Actually, that’s my life. I’m no rock star, just an only child who lives in his head with the music, books, and movies that make it all go away. That’s the life of a loner. I’m alone even in the middle of a crowd with them all screaming my name.

If you have any doubts about what this album has in store for you, watch the video for the first single, “The Heinrich Maneuver,” below.



Interpol - "The Heinrich Maneuver"


GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

ZAP MAMA HAS PLANTED A FLAG ON THEIR SUPERMOON


As you know, I was inspired yesterday by the wave of incredible music that filled my space. It stirred something deep inside me, and I found myself writing and writing and writing some more. You get to see the reviews, but there were other pieces written too. You might be seeing those very very soon.

Below is the second installment in the new music review series, this time featuring Zap Mama and their latest release “Supermoon”. These are not just reviews. They are meditations. Each one speaks to the hidden corners of my soul, so know that you are in store for some good vibes and even better sounds. Enjoy.



Today was an incredible day for new music, from names that already live in the light to those still pushing through the shadows. After playing the UGK album, I thought, let’s keep this high going with Zap Mama's new project, “Supermoon”.

Yes, I am that weirdo who goes from gangsta rap to funky out of this world world music without blinking. The album opens with the up-tempo joy of “1000 Ways” and walks you through each and every one of the ways they are brilliant until the final breath of “Princess Kesia.” This is exactly what I have come to expect—in the most sacred and satisfying sense of the word—from this remarkable group led by Marie Daulne.

It is funky, it is soulful, and it is intricately layered. It gives you what you need even when you cannot understand most of the words. You feel it anyway. As Time Magazine put it, “Marie Daulne and Zap Mama make music that sounds like a one woman multicultural movement, melding African percussion, American soul, and European urbanity.” That line stuck with me because it feels right. It feels earned.

This Sunday I will be seeing them at SummerStage, tearing the roof off a place with no ceiling, except for the ones you place above yourself. And if you are a performer, then you already know—those are the hardest ones to break through.


Zap Mama “1000 Ways”

Zap Mama “Supermoon” Video



GVG

~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Friday, August 10, 2007

CALL THEM THE KINGZ


For the past couple of days, I have been deep in a serious new music vortex. With the exception of a couple of albums that made me want to throw my speakers out the damn window, it has been a beautiful time for my ears. I would start one album, feel something, write through it, and before I could even finish that thought, another record would begin and pull something else out of me. I was caught in this beautiful creative loop, writing as I listened and listening as I wrote. It reminded me of how connected my spirit is to sound and how necessary music has always been to the way I process the world.

Quick side note, that little phrase I love using so much — “and so on and so on and so on” — did not originate with Outkast on “Morris Brown” like a lot of people think. It actually comes from an old TV commercial I remember vividly. Funny how those little phrases stick to your ribs like soul food. At the end of this unexpected journey, I looked up and realized I had written about five albums in one sitting: UGK’s Underground Kingz, Zap Mama’s Supermoon, Keith Murray’s RapMurrPhobia, Common’s Finding Forever, and Alice Smith’s For Lovers, Dreamers & Me.

But once I had everything down, I realized nobody wants to read five album reviews in one shot. That is a lot to ask of even the most devoted readers. So I decided to slow it down. One album a day, for the next five days. Each entry will come with a sample and a video to give you not just words, but the sounds that sparked them. Below is the first, the one that kicked this whole thing off, UGK’s Underground Kingz.

I just finished blasting UGK’s latest double album Underground Kingz for the third time, and it moved me enough to write this with a full heart. If I am being honest, I was never a hardcore UGK fan. I respected their legacy, their cultural footprint, and their early southern pioneering long before the South had the global microphone. But they never fully resonated with me. I put them in the same class as Scarface, and if you know me, you know how much weight that carries, but it had more to do with reverence than rotation.

That changes now. With this release, I have no choice but to reevaluate their place in my personal Hip Hop canon. This album is not just a reintroduction, it is a reminder. A southern odyssey that feels both historic and immediate.

I had the album for a while before I pressed play. Like so many others, I was caught up in the brilliance of the first single “International Players Anthem,” but if we are keeping it one hundred, that was mostly because of the holy monogamy SLAP DOWN that Andre “Feature Killer” 3000 delivered on the opening verse. That verse stopped time. It made people refer to the track as an Andre 3000 song featuring UGK and Big Boi. RESPECT THAT MANS GANGSTA. Greatest rapper of the year off five fucking features. Not even full projects. Just cameos. WATCH WHATS ABOUT TO GO DOWN WITH HIS NEW RAP ALBUM. The other four were:

Lloyd ft. Andre 3000 and Nas “I Want You” (Remix)
Rich Boy ft. Andre 3000, Jim Jones, Nelly, Murphy Lee, and The Game “Throw Some Ds” (Remix)
Devin the Dude ft. Andre 3000 and Snoop Dogg “What a Job”

Like so many others, I initially thought, why the hell would I listen to a DOUBLE album for ONE SONG? I could just hit my friends’ MySpace pages or run the extended video on YouTube whenever I needed that wedding bell bliss and that wild ass girl saying “Tic, if that bitch do you dirty we’ll wipe her ass out as in detergent.”

Then I pressed play.

WOW.

No doubt about it, this is a UGK album, through and through. Anyone who has ever ridden with Pimp C and Bun B will feel right at home in this 26 track marathon, complete with three bonus cuts. This is what I call “Ridin music.” It is the type of record that makes you lean all the way back in your seat, drive real slow through your neighborhood, and let the bass talk for you. It is lyrical, which sadly feels like an endangered species when we talk about most southern rap, with the glaring exception of Andre “Feature Killer” 3000.

The production is soulful and rich — live instrumentation, bluesy undertones, and funk that ripples gently underneath the bars. Every beat is handpicked for the lean. Every verse is layered like it matters.

And then the features.

Every artist who showed up played in UGK’s sandbox without losing themselves. Too Short. Scarface. Slim Thug. Willie D. Jazze Pha. Rick Ross. Big Daddy Kane. Kool G Rap. T.I. They bring the PIMPIN and HUSTLIN you expect, but it never feels like they hijacked the session. Then there are the surprises. Charlie Wilson. Dizzee Rascal. Raheem DeVaughn. Talib Kweli. When I saw their names, I paused. I wondered what kind of ride this would be and if I was willing to take it. I took it, and I never had to shift my lean to feel a thing.

Every guest knew whose house they entered and brought their best selves to the table. Together, they made UGK’s muzak, southern, cinematic, raw, and absolutely intentional. The best summary I heard about the album was this: “heavy doses of braggadocious slick talk, unbridled swagger, and machismo gun talk.” That about nails it.

So I will end this where I began, with gratitude for the music, for the way it stirred something in me, and for the ride it took me on.



GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

UGK & Outkast - Int'l Player's Anthem (Extended Cut)

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

A LAURYN HILL LIVE IN BK REVIEW FROM ONE OF THE LOST ONES


I can't believe I missed it, I was so sure she was going to be cracked out and I couldn't handle seeing her like that. I would have broken down, I love her. I've been watching all the past show clips, interviews, articles, so have you, and I wasn't looking forward to experiencing her in that state in my home town. Then I get a call at around 12:30am from my friend Kwesi asking "PLEASE tell me you're walking out of the concert with me right now???!?!!?!??" once I told him no, he began to tell me about my loss and for that I shall forever be in mourning. I wish I was there to be able to write my own review, but I missed it so I’ll have to give you a firsthand account from someone smarter than me. Here is Candace L’s review from the OkayPlayer website.

"Ms. Lauryn Hill LIVE in Brooklyn"

Candace L.
Lauryn Hill in Brooklyn’s Wingate Field
8.6.07

It’s a good thing they left so early.
It’s a good thing it was so hot late into the evening.
It’s an even better thing that she got lost.

Deep on the other side of nowhere is East Flatbush, Brooklyn, home to the world’s slowest CVS pharmacy, a Kennedy Fried Chicken shack and on Monday night, 10,000 visitors from across the five boroughs and East Coast. The elusive Lauryn Hill came to town that night and though not many believed she would actually show up, the masses came in throngs just in case. One early bird for the 7:30pm show came at 5:30pm only to find a line outside of Wingate Field already stretching down the block. These were the people desiring the limited seats at the Field, who evidently quickly surrendered them during Hill’s set when she didn’t sing “That Thing” soon enough for them. But more on that later.

The evening began with heavy promotion. Outside the park, makeshift stands and carts were set up to sell everything from Poland Spring to tube socks (hopefully for standing on the dirt and grass, but probably for no better reason than to push some socks). Once inside the gate, the marketing continued from the event’s host, Brooklyn Borough President Marty Markowitz, who paraded political allies onstage to Bush-bash and awkwardly pretend they were interested in a Lauryn Hill concert. Best of the pre-show was a group of teenaged-looking girls in tight red tees and tighter black pants or shorts. They appeared to be some sort of local dance group, but once onstage, they were introduced as a group of workers from various Applebee’s restaurants there to present raffle winners with a free dinner. But first they went down the line introducing themselves and pitching Applebee’s dishes (‘My name is Daishika. Try our new Apple BBQ Chicken Salad at the BedStuy Applebee’s on Fulton Street and come see me.’) Young girls in tight clothes asking a group of strangers to ‘come see them’ - nothing cheeky about that at all.

The first intentional entertainment of the night was Sean Kingston, the seventeen-year-old singer of “Beautiful Girls,” a song that is allegedly number one on a chart somewhere right now. Cute enough song, but it didn’t seem like he was a singer at all. He mostly switched between talking the lyrics to the adoring tweens in the crowd and chatting with his equally youthful hype man. His set consisted of coaxing “Brooklyn!” chants from the patient audience and singing along with the songs of much more popular artists. Not sure of the strategy on that one, but it worked. There was enough of him to feel like he was there, but little enough substance to easily delete him for all the mental files on Lauryn you were soon to collect.

As expected, the changeover between acts was excruciating. Not only because it exceeded thirty minutes, but because at that point, if you were employed and unable to wait in line at four in the afternoon for a seat, you were standing somewhere on an uneven plot of unkempt grass in cute shoes. Not helping matters was the jittery Markowitz saying every five minutes, “Her manager says this is how it goes. She is coming.” We were thinking it, but his reassurances that Hill wouldn’t flake were anything but comforting. Once the band streamed onstage, the delay was justified. A procession of at least ten people, including three backup singers, three drummers (including congas), a guitarist, a keyboardist and a horn section filled the stage and began laying down some jazzy funk. Many were on their feet from this point on in anticipation of the star of the show, waiting for this funk interlude to end and the hip-hop show to begin. Well, that happened and it didn’t. After a couple selections, the band simmered down and allowed the entrance for an afro’d figure decked in brown and denim. She was here. Thicker than before, but as beautiful as you remember and jacked with energy. Wasting no time, the funk interlude swelled into a full-blown gospel jaunt, prompting a nearby fan to complain, “Why don’t she just sing?” A few songs later, a woman next to her disdainfully co-signed, “All this jump around music.” Good thing they left early.

Really early. Hill went on to perform for the next 90 minutes, but the impatient or disappointed were seen streaming from their front and center seated and standing positions after just 15 minutes of ‘jump around music.’ From the gospel, Hill launched into an oldie, but goodie, “Lost Ones,” but not as you remember it. This version had a harder, rock edge to it and Hill sped through her lines as if she were daring her own band to keep up with her. Speed was an issue with Hill throughout the night. After finally settling down enough so the audience could sing along with some of the songs, Hill impatiently spurred her band, “Come on, come on. Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go! Pick it up, pick it up, pick it up. Ow!” This was not the same chick from "Sister Act 2." That sweet, yearning singer was replaced by a howling, Jackie Wilson leg-flipping, arm-waving, revival-leading maniac. Maybe that’s the picture they should have put in the program because a number of the once eager crowd put their recording devices away and sat back through hype versions of Bob Marley’s “Natty Dread,” “When It Hurt So Bad,” “Final Hour” and Nina Simone’s “Sinnerman.” Eventually, Hill appeased the R&B lovers and slowed things down with the still moving “Ex-Factor” and “Zion.” She continued the chill out session with Roberta Flack’s, “The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face.” Apologizing for her strained vocal chords, Hill made the crowd forget that this isn’t the Flack cover that made her popular. In an instant, she transformed from the bastard child of Betty Davis and Sly Stone to inhabit the warm elegance that so many of her fans remember.

The remaining loyalists in the crowd, or at least curious gawkers, were rewarded further as Hill reached back to some of her hits as a Fugees member, scatting through “How Many Mics,” “Fu-Gee-La” and “Zealots.” We officially reached the throwback portion of the show as she then steamrolled through rousing renditions of “Killing Me Softly” and “Everything is Everything” that had the crowd jumping off its feet. One of the show’s sponsors must have been Red Bull because Hill never skipped a beat. Good thing she was the only person wearing a leather vest in 90 degree weather or she would have resembled any other fan out there. She seemed to enjoy revisiting the hits as much as the audience.


For an encore, Hill sang one of her new songs, “Lose Myself” that returned to some of the jumpier melodies performed earlier in her set. The chorus, “I lose myself/so I can make it better” felt so poignant considering what we know (or think we know) about her time spent out of the spotlight since "The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill." She closed the night out asking Brooklyn a question with the assistance of her amazing back-up singers, “Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow?” As the voices clamored, “Yeah!” Hill and crew swung into the last hit of the night, “That Thing.”

As the band quieted down and Hill left the stage, her lyrics hung in the air with brand new import, “Things done changed/And you know they not ready.” Things have changed and the hollowed out crowd maybe proved that people are still not ready for what Hill is bringing to the table. Hailed almost a decade ago for her soulful lyrics about heartache and self-fulfillment, Hill has re-emerged seemingly stronger, happier and dancing all over the stage (I was waiting for her tasseled leather vest to fall to the floor only for one of her bandmates to throw it back on her shoulders, but to no avail.). But many of her fans seem stuck in 1998 wanting to hear sob stories that no longer exist. It’s probably for the best. Good thing L Boogie got lost. It helped her find Ms. Hill.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

AN EVENING UNDER THE STARS 2


The pictures below don’t even begin to capture what the 2nd Annual Evening Under the Stars truly was. This gathering was originally conceived by Timothy Grae and myself just last year. The first event was already a powerful statement in and of itself, especially considering its underlying theme “Don’t get our BLACK ASSES locked up.” And yet, even under those very real limitations, we pulled off something beautiful. We created an evening picnic in Central Park, on the Upper East Side, attended by approximately 150 people, mostly people of color, with nothing more than word of mouth. No permits. No advertising. Just trust and intention.

There were no major issues, aside from a quiet patrol car parked discreetly at the bottom of the hill, something I was not even aware of until the very end. When the night ended peacefully, it left us stunned and affirmed. “Hey, they didn’t lock us up. Oh, it’s ON for next year.” That moment of relief and quiet defiance became the seed for what would become the second installment.

For reasons personal to me, I chose to step back from co-producing the second year. I placed my full confidence in Timothy Grae and the capable hands of Grae Enterprises to carry the vision forward. What I witnessed when I came up over that hill, the same hill we discovered during an early evening location stroll last year that led us to Cherry Hill, took my breath away.

There were nearly twice as many people as the year before. The setup was so thoughtfully executed that it could easily rival any high end outdoor event I have either produced or attended. The presentation, the vibe, the care, it was all there, and it was undeniable.

The beauty of Evening Under the Stars cannot be fully explained in photos or even in words. It is a feeling. It is a communion. It is the kind of magic that only those who were present can truly understand. But trust me when I say this, you do not want to miss next year.



Evening Under the Stars Pictures

GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Sunday, August 5, 2007

AUDIO FOREPLAY SUNDAY


I’m grumpy, nothing happened just in a bad mood. I really had no desire or plans of doing an audio foreplay sampling today, until I thought I’d like to hear or see something to give me goose bumps. Then it came to me and I wanted to share it with you.



In a couple of hours I will be sipping wine under the evening stars and that will definitely put me in a better mood. As always enjoy the moments...

GVG
~we’re the warriors they write epics about~

Thursday, August 2, 2007

THE RACE DRAFT


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